Tuesday, what a sad a day…. Suppose hubby and I meeting Kelyn and Lynyrd for dinner & movie date @ Vivo city, but we didn’t go coz we had argument again. And I feel so worn-out, and I don’t feel like talking anymore. Sometime I really feel that he is real self-centered man, a man that will never acknowledge his mistake. Full of his ego, and make our R/S turn sour. Sometimes I just want to say something back to him and let him know e feeling that how e way I feel too, like that also so difficult meh? To me, as husband & wife we should be able to confess what we want and what we thinking of. Sometimes I really feel that we both belong to different worlds, and he always say that I’m e one who keep saying want to be apart. Of course I would have this kind of thinking as this is my 2nd marriage and I’m afraid to fall down again, my 1st marriage was bad and it really killed me deep inside. And I always wanted e best for now, as I did try out an R/S for 3years and it couldn’t work it out too. I’m scared, scared to make mistake again and again. Scared to get hurt and he just don’t understand. He always feel that no matter what happen so long as we love each another nothing can tear us apart. Maybe is true, nothing can tear us apart but feeling can kill us apart. Sometimes I just feel so weary and don’t know how to express myself anymore. I feel so sad and hurt that he will always never know.
Hubby back home with roses now, and say sorry about yesterday… I feel so happy and abit of angry coz he say; see $23 settle Liao... wau lau, cheapo lo… angry angry angry, later I’m going to Xiao bai’s house play mahjong with her, Cas & April... wish me good luck!!!
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