Dessert @ Bedok

I'm having dessert at Bedok alone as I'm meeting hubby here & he is late. When I saw e stall selling black glutinous rice let me think of ah Ma. This is e last thing we had together at CGH b4 her op & is e last thing we do together. And I also promise her that I will buy for her again but no more.. I reali her so much & I never expected that I could miss her so much when she is gone.. It's really a mistake to ask her do this op? If she don do it maybe we still have chance to stay by her side?

Everything has a side of story.

I'm now in train, on my way back to office. Yesterday was a pretty bad day for me coz I quarrel with hubby badly, dental side oso bad coz gum inflamation then night miss my dinner appt. When I was in e dental waiting for my turn hubby came, we settle everything once & for all and I told him how unhappy am I all tis while. And he say thing will be beta wan & he promise. Sometime I reali don't know whether should stay or leave? I had failed once & I don't wan thing repeat again & again. I don't need a husband to be rich or handsome, I just need someone that can love & care for me. A person that can lend me a shoulder when I need.
Lately many thing unhappy happen around me, 1st my op then ah Ma pass away follow by staying with MIL so difficult. At least I reali feel like giving everything coz no matter how much I do for his family, his mum will never appreciated. Coz she is always right & she only believe on her own, no matter how nice I treat her oso no use. She always act like a queen at home, she say yes and no one can say no. Sometime I'm reali tired, I reali hope that hubby can give me full support

My mood now...

Today I'm super angry with Harry, I have never throw my temper so bad b4 in front of him for a long long time. I hate it when I'm sharing how I feel & he keep saying that I'm nagging. When I'm unhappy who can I go to? Husband/ mum/ friends or doctor? If I'm a marry woman, it's ok that I speak to my husband & complaint how I feel of what I see?? At this point I can say is no one, as I share with my husband about how I feel about his mum. He always say that I'm full of complaint & never a day I'm happy with her but he say about my bro. He even say thing very bad or very cb about him, I also stay cool to reply his words. Today is e worse day that I reali throw out all at e time & I just run away from him in e middle of e road. I reali cannot take it e way he say me. I can endure anything rubbish from his family but e only thing I can't stand is my husband say I nag & want me to stop. I reali feel that I want to be alone. I want to end all this, maybe is me prob is all me.. I cannot live with other people.. Should I stay alone??