23rd - 26th Oct 2009

Friday, after tattoo hubby & I went to meet Lim & his family as we go JB for supper and bought DVD back… I bought some new drama series Burning Flame III & D.I.E Again2, heard from James that this is e new show update now… After DVD shop we went to eat my FAV log-log, Lim’s son and I always ate lots of fish ball e both of us can clear e whole tray of fish ball until hubby say that we are so greedy..

Sat, as usual hubby and I when to fetch Erina around 3pm then we went to Hougang Mall for lunch and bought some foodstuff back to fernvale and cook chicken rice for my family. Erina always want me to cook chicken coz she say my rice is very nice but she didn’t know that cooking chicken rice is so ma fun lo… It been awhile I never cook dinner for them Liao coz lately a lot of thing happen in my family and we are hoping that thing would change for better and our family can enjoy happiness together…

Sun morning woke up, as early as hubby didn’t sleep well coz he is having abdomen pain then we had Mac for breakfast coz daddy ordered it for us… Around 1plus mum called and say his auntie cannot make it Liao and ask us faster go over her house, when we reach we saw her lying down there eyes and mouth open very big & breathing was very bad… See Liao so scary & so pitiful moreover she is Malay so they keep do praying like in mosques, we also don’t understand what is going on just follow whatever my mother in law ask us to do… Whenever I saw his auntie it always let me remain of my dad, cancer people die in e same way their look very scary and they look so skinny like a bamboo… Haiz, why human must have this kind of sickness?? A sickness that never can cure….. Around evening time hubby and I send my father in law back home 1st then we went to Tampines Mall had our dinner at Swensen’s then we had a walk coz hubby knew that I’m abit sad seeing her auntie likes that… And I saw e shoes that I wanted to buy that time at Pazzion, I tot it was out of stock already but it came back again... So I bought e shoes with Diamond and pink in colour, so nice…. Thanks hubby for always being pamper me….

My Mac BIG breakfast for today, busy busy with my drama series & I busy searching air ticket for BKK on Nov…. Can’t wait to go for a break, Jan BKK tickets booked with Liang & Kelyn is time for shopping again… Yeah!!!!!

Feeling.......

Today, Friday 23rd Oct now I’m at Sam’s tattoo shop accompany hubby to do his tattoo and yet this fat boy was sleeping down here and I’m playing with my FB now… This whole week nothing much happen only tues play mahjong with Liang and wife then wed go far east wit Sherina to do her nails and had our Fav lunch at e Thai restaurant and we had curry fish head with some other dish, e curry fish head was so good and cheap.. Our lunch only cost us $40, so cheap and nice food so must try is at far east level 4... After nails we both went back home as she is flying off in e evening…
Last night Jason came to return me e money and I ask him why is he like that? I ask him where have all his money gone to? And just reply me that he don’t know, sometime I really don’t what i should do about it coz I really want to help him to change for a better life but I always failed.. Can someone tell me how could teach him and help him? Deep inside me, I really do hate him of all his stupidly behavior but sometime I really pity him and hoping that he could change and come back to us… maybe just like what hubby always say I should learn how to let go and let him grew coz he is old enough to think for himself… Maybe I really care too Liao sometime people have to learn from their mistake then they will grow, lately I didn’t really want to talk to Diana coz I felt very disappointed with her as I dislike e way she handle her life and let herself become like that… she don’t even love her then what can I do? Maybe she find me heartless now but I hope that she could learn and grow also, life is short and nobody can tell u what’s right or wrong… I had make lots of mistake in my past and I felt so regret and I had kill a kid childhood… so now I learn to be stronger and I don’t want to make mistake again…
I really hope Diana will be stronger and move forward in life, don always be a EMO queen to make people worry… be someone one day to prove to herself and her family…I will give her my blessing and I really hope that without me around, she really learn and don’t go back to e past Diana…
Sis, I cannot always be there for u if one day I leave this world then u will be alone to face all your problems so wake up now…

I pray to god that people around me are all bless with happiness and health…. Live happy coz life is short….

Feeling.......

Today, Friday 23rd Oct now I’m at Sam’s tattoo shop accompany hubby to do his tattoo and yet this fat boy was sleeping down here and I’m playing with my FB now… This whole week nothing much happen only tues play mahjong with Liang and wife then wed go far east wit Sherina to do her nails and had our Fav lunch at e Thai restaurant and we had curry fish head with some other dish, e curry fish head was so good and cheap.. Our lunch only cost us $40, so cheap and nice food so must try is at far east level 4... After nails we both went back home as she is flying off in e evening…
Last night Jason came to return me e money and I ask him why is he like that? I ask him where have all his money gone to? And just reply me that he don’t know, sometime I really don’t what i should do about it coz I really want to help him to change for a better life but I always failed.. Can someone tell me how could teach him and help him? Deep inside me, I really do hate him of all his stupidly behavior but sometime I really pity him and hoping that he could change and come back to us… maybe just like what hubby always say I should learn how to let go and let him grew coz he is old enough to think for himself… Maybe I really care too Liao sometime people have to learn from their mistake then they will grow, lately I didn’t really want to talk to Diana coz I felt very disappointed with her as I dislike e way she handle her life and let herself become like that… she don’t even love her then what can I do? Maybe she find me heartless now but I hope that she could learn and grow also, life is short and nobody can tell u what’s right or wrong… I had make lots of mistake in my past and I felt so regret and I had kill a kid childhood… so now I learn to be stronger and I don’t want to make mistake again…
I really hope Diana will be stronger and move forward in life, don always be a EMO queen to make people worry… be someone one day to prove to herself and her family…I will give her my blessing and I really hope that without me around, she really learn and don’t go back to e past Diana…
Sis, I cannot always be there for u if one day I leave this world then u will be alone to face all your problems so wake up now…

I pray to god that people around me are all bless with happiness and health…. Live happy coz life is short….

Dinner with buddies

Hubby & I share so much food.........

People out there must try the Japanese food at Heeren about e same as Tampines One.....

Shuduko Streets Of Japan

When dinner with buddies they all on 10.10.09 @ Heeren, i didn't got time to upload them...

Buddies don't forget our dinner date on this Sunday OK.....

Sad day

Yesterday was a very sad say as morning my mother in law told me that her younger sister is going to pass away Liao, doctor say only left 1 – 2days time so she ask us to go visit her if possible.. So after hubby finish work he came back to pick me and my father in law to Auntie Margaret’s house when I min I saw her , I couldn’t control my moan coz she look like skinny laying down on bed and cannot move at all… She even cannot remember us at times when e min I saw his grandmother hold his auntie’s hand and sayang her stomach, my moan fall and I walk out of e room as it remain me of my dad coz e last day I saw my dad in CGH my ah ma also hold his hand and talk to him… And all my aunties are crying and crying telling my dad not to leave us but in e end he still left us… Suddenly I felt that life really short and now I just want to be happy and I cannot be bother about our people stuff anymore coz even I care so much doesn’t mean that they will appreciate it. So now I learn to love & treasure what I have and who is beside me, esp those people that never give up on me… Here by I wish that everyone could life joyful and no more wars in this world…

Outing to Pee A Boo

Sunday 18th Oct, wake up around 1plus coz I need to fetch Erina back to my mum’s place but when my mum called say Jason was there then I told her that I’m not going back Liao… Some more I’m going back alone coz hubby still sleeping but luckily 15mins before I left e house hubby awaken Liao and he ask me to wait for him and he will bring Erina out to meet Jay and his wife to Kallang Pee A Boo, e was so small e place and I can’t even acc Erina for e whole thing and she still prefer downtown east wan also. After Pee A Boo we went to eat paste and I find that actual kallang got nothing to shop wan only ice skate and Pee A Boo for children and some restaurant… Hopefully next week got time can bring Erina to downtown east wan…..

Wakeboarding + Johnson's Bday

Saturday 17th Oct, wake up about 7:30am as hubby & I are going to wakeboarding with Sherina, Gavin, Jeffery & Erwayne... 1st we went to pick up Sherina @ her house there then we meet Gavin at Bedok interchange for our breakfast and buy foodstuff to bring on board. Sherina and I were so exhausted as e night before we slept at 2am, e both of us like zombie going for wakeboard. We booked e boat man at 10am but he was late so we started around 11am - 3:30pm, it was enjoyable and I started to love wakeboarding but wakeboarding wasn’t easy game to play & is an expensive sea sport it cost us about $100 per person… Only Jeffery, Gavin & Erwayne went before so e rest of us are fresh and 1st time wakeboard, so I have to be taught from e start and we didn’t expected that it could be so difficult want. Hubby & Sherina attempt many time to balance them and stand up to board at e end they failed only me had e chance standing and move e board, everyone one board was so fun… We chit chat, sing, dance & laugh all e way on board even e boat man also cannot tahan us, he keep laughing at us and see like we are mad people on board esp when hubby & Sherina turn to go on sea… After hours on sea everyone feel so exhausted, hubby and I send Sherina home 1st as she got family dinner at 5pm and then we went to Chai Chee blk 25 coffee shop for dinner with Gavin they all too… After dinner they went for massage as they say, e next day would have ache all over e body but hubby and I was too tired to join them so we went back home and take a catnap coz night time we need to meet up Johnson they as it was Johnson’s birthday party @ Rain Ktv… We would at Rain from 11pm – 3am then we went to Toa Payoh Oasis eat supper, hubby was damn intoxicated and he vomited twice outside e restaurant … So I didn’t really had my supper coz hubby keep asking me to go home saying that he couldn’t take it anymore, I really very long time didn’t see him so high liao as e birthday boy also never vomit and yet he does… After sending him home, I still got to shower him and let him go sleep 1st coz he vomited at home too so I got to clean up e place then shower then go to bed… I really feel damn shag out man coz Sunday I still got to fetch Erina…

Why cant he change?? Why must CHEATS

Then next it was Janice’s wedding, my best buddy someone that really stand by me all this while with her whole heart and we have been thru a lot of thing from best friend to stranger and back to best friend again and I really treasure Sherina & her a lot coz I know that they always lead me to e right path and give me e full support I want from them. Her wedding was e best wan, everyone seem so enjoy and happy for that day and everything went smooth as what she wanted also… All e best in your marriage Buddy, I knew that Xiao Long really loves & pamper you with his whole heart... Give u all my blessing

After Janice’s wedding it was my Wedding anniversary, our 1st wedding anniversary time really passed fast 1year already… This year hubby really gives me a lot thing that I never expected from him, sometime I really pissed off with e way he talked and behaved but I knew that he mean no harm want but just that he couldn’t control his terrible mouth like to say unpleasant words to me… But I knew that he really does love me, thank you hubby for loving me. Hubby brought me to Singapore flyer for surprise dinner too it was so romantic and e food was good quality, I never expect that he would plan so much on our anniversary and bought Tiffany & Co charms for me too… I only bought him a PSP but haven’t collect coz his friends say install games for him, after our dinner we went to meet his bosses at new Thai disco as it was a Monday he need to settle some stuff.. E new Thai disco was very big coz I heard it used to be a cinema and they take over e whole place, singer & dances was good also well dress up.

Hubby, bought Tiffany & Co Charm for me... Thanks hubby, I love it...

Our Dinner @ Singapore Flyer... 12.10.2009

And yesterday 15th Oct Thursday, it was suppose a happy day for me as I went down to town shopping with Jasmine as we need to go Gucci to bought birthday present for John… when we went there Jasmine saw e wallet that she wanted to purchase but yet don’t have e cardholder that I wanted for him so no choice only Jasmine bought it then I walk around to find nice belt for him coz hubby say he need a belt for work.. I went to a few shop still couldn’t find a nice belt for him so I give up then Jasmine went to Wheelock for her appointment and I walk over to Far East to buy my skin care @ SkinFood and I spend over $200 headache lo…

After SkinFood I walk over to DFS to check whether they have a cardholder there ant? Too bad they also don’t have it so then I took a train to AMK to meet hubby as we are going to Shifu’s house pray but when I reached AMK he wasn’t there yet so angry and I took a bus to Hougang to wait for him, after he pick me up we went down to Shifu’s house and Shifu tell me a shocking thing that I don’t whether I should believe him anot?? When my turn to do cards reading Shifu asks me what I want to know???

Wen – Shifu I wanna know about my health?

Shifu – it’s about your stomach thingy?? Tot I told u go check up that time??

Wen - yes, I did for my womb check up Liao and really found something inside and I plan to remover but today I wanna ask is my back bone coz lately my back hurts till my right leg can’t walk properly like b4 and sometime even can’t sleep in e night coz is too painful Liao.. Is there anything wrong with me??

Shifu – Your cards don’t seem good and u better take care of yourself must stay happy then sickness will leave u and now I give u all this FU to go home and drink for a week but u better see a doctor ASAP..

Wen – HUH??? Am I ok?? AM I GOING TO DIE?? Or its becoz I have cancer??

Shifu – Don’t ask so much, I will help u just go and pray now and tell god to bring away all your sickness.

Wen – Shifu it’s very bad? Just tell me I can take it want... Don’t worry; I’m preparing if I have cancer. And now I really change and want to live better never harm people Liao lo…

Shifu – Is not that u harm people or what is your KRAMA and this life u have to pay it back... Just stay happy Okie.

Then I was like HUH what it’s going on now?? After pray Yvonne ask me aside and tell me that actual shifu say inside my cards saw that I have cancer and they hope that I can go for a full body check up and try to treatment as early as I can. My heart like tears & break, I’m only 26years old le why must let me suffer this some more I really change my life Liao... All I want is to be Harry’s wife and have our own family but now……… RUBBISH LO, on e way back home I didn’t really talk much and hubby say why must I believe all just go for body check 1st then say can right now just live normal and go for your womb ops 1st then I was like what if I really die?? Will u miss me?? Will u visit & pray me?? Will u visit my family?? Hubby was so irritated and pissed with me and him shouted say CAN U SHUT UP!!!!! Go and see doctor 1st master is just a master and he is not a doctor so PLS… Then I was like ORH OK LA and I couldn’t sleep well last night till this morning then I slept for about 1hour and I suppose having facial appointment at 1pm but I didn’t went coz I like blur blur de coz when I was bathing I use my cleansing milk as my conditioner lo… And I got a news from Diana that CAs went in for 1year 6month, I don’t know wanna be happy for her or what… Suddenly I just feel very disappointed in her, I always tell myself not to give up on her and I must help her to go on e right path but I failed REALI FAILED… Coz she just don’t know what she wants in life and she just making herself & people who love her suffer… I really got nothing much to say her anymore if she don’t know how to learn and love herself, nobody can help her coz life is on her own hand other people can say or advice her but we can’t live for her…

Then around 1plus I called Sherina and went over to her house to chit chat with her and her mum, they arrange an appointment for me on Monday to see Doctor Kee for my womb and arrange ops date for me.. We chatted for so long and I told them what master say, and I told them my worry is my daughter& mother coz I know that my brothers won’t take care of her want if I’m gone… Sherina & Auntie Chris say I siao Liao keep saying this kind of words, I told them maybe life really short and unpredicted… Then around 4pm hubby & my MIL came to fetch me and we went to EXPO for shop then suddenly Jason Tan called asking me got 1K to lend him anot?? So I called my mum and told her then we were like shocked what is he doing ma?? Selling my dad’s house he got 30K and he never give us a single cent some more he already lend money from my mum few weeks back it just that he don’t know that my mum told me.. So I ask him why u needs so much $$, he says he needs to return people ASAP if not very jia liat... Then awhile later we really transfer him money and then night time my mum called say he went to Alvin’s camp and pick him home, I was like huh what is he doing & what he want from Alvin?? So then I called Alvin and check and I ask him to test my Jason see why he needs so much $$ for… Then Alvin told me something which I was even SHOCK, he say last week when my mum not in Singapore Jason ask him for AMT card saying that his friend wanted to transfer $$ to him from oversea then Alvin lend him e card and inside still got balance $250 which my mum put inside for Alvin coz she was away for holiday scare that Alvin have not enough $$ to eat and then today Alvin ask back e card from him guess what he say, inside e $$ I use finish already coz my friend never transfer $$ to me… WTF your own bro $$ le and I was so pissed off, I called my mum and told her if I would know earlier that he already cheated Alvin’s ATM card I wouldn’t lend him this 1K today… I should let him kana beat up or kill by people then he will learn his lesson, he already cheated us once by say wanted to shift my dad from bright hill temple to san qing gong after he got e 30K but he didn’t, he just say I don’t have enough $$ Liao… At that time I really hate him, I really don’t want this brother anymore but yet my Ah ma ask me to 4give him and don’t push him and say he poor thing that his wife don’t want.. All this is bullshit real bullshit, he took his $$ to date China woman and go night club with his friends then what US? When he got no $$ come back to us and borrow here and there just to treat people outsider and now what he do?? He now CHEATS our money, tell lies and make my mother cry…. I really cannot stand anymore and I swear, I won’t forget him even if my Ah ma wants to hate me or blame me… I will go ahead, I hate him, I hate that he always make use of us and he never be truthful to us and he never treat us as a family… I tell my mum in further if he goes back her house during e weekend I don’t want to go back, I can’t take it anymore. Why other people can have happy family why can’t we have it too? Why can’t our brother love us just like how we love him?? Why is he always blaming e world that he can’t have thing in his way?? I HATE HIM NOW

Crazy Cab Driver

This few weeks I been busy with a lot of thing, got happy thing also got sad thing till I don’t know how to express myself… I only know that right now my heart is crying I really hate it when I knew e factual…

Lately this few weeks I really did a lot of thing in my life and I felt so meaningful and I never told it will feel so great… 1st it was my birthday celebration, 26years in my life this is e 1st time my family celebration together with me coz after my dad & mum separated I never had a birthday party and nobody remember my birthday only my mum, never once my brothers would sms or buy a birthday gift for me and I always feel gloomy and hurt.. Only this year finally everyone sit down together and have dinner & buy birthday cake for me. I feel so touched and contented that my family & my in laws really indulge me and my hubby also brings me out for dinner at Sentosa as a surprise plan and It was a fantastic dinner & unforgettable wan...

Then next is my grandparent check up date, 1st I brought my Chai Chee grandfather for check up at Bedok Polyclinic alone by myself with wheelchair as my Ah Gong can’t walk. I wheel him from Chai Chee all e way to Bedok interchange polyclinic as my Ah ma find excuse not to follow us and yet she is drinking coffee at coffee shop (so irritated lo), then after check up doctor say everything was fine and he need to go back 4months later then e both of us go for our lunch at 205 coffee shop after lunch I wheel him back home.. I feel so exhausted after wheel him here & there just like after running 2.4km and then around 3plus hubby came and fetch me back home, suddenly I miss my Ah gong coz I find him so unfortunate after he fall sick things changed he used to be a very tall & strong old man driving a taxi & give us a lot of money to spend but when he fall sick everyone just turn away from him. So scared to look after him even his own sons just simple find a lot of reason, sometime I really can’t stand e way they treated him and I felt like F them but my mum always tell me to stay out of it coz no matter what we are not e same surname want let them decided what they want to do to him. I always tell myself if one day I could have enough money to look after him, I would take him away from them and given him a good life with good care. After my Ah gong appointment next is my Tampines side Ah ma, she need to go hospital for her eyes check up when that morning I brought her, auntie & my cousin to hospital we met a very rude cab uncle that drove us in e wrong way never mind and yet quarrel with us inside e cab coz he suddenly brake e car then my Ah ma hit herself and got blue black on her face and scold me F F F F F… I was so pissed off that we nearly fight inside e cab and my cousin see till blur plus my Ah ma keep putting me down e cab, I never met such a rude driver before… If not my Ah ma not around I’ll sure give him a box or slap on his face and ask him F**k off… That day was an unlucky day for us met such a mad & rude driver, after Ah ma finish check up her face became worse so I ask hubby to call and make complaint of it… After Ah ma’s house me and my cousin went to Starbucks for a drink and this is e 1st time I got chance to really chat with her coz all this while I hardly got chance to get close to my father side people as young time we are really separated and it was a nice chat and I’m surprise that she would sit down with me for so long and her sister join us too.. Even thou we are as close as other cousins but I really treasure & thank them that they could accept me (someone that is different from their world)… If time could turn back again, I rather I am good and stay at home with them at least I could share e joy with them... Pure & innocent people with simple life and yet very joyful, hope god will remain everything like this forever…

Our Birthday Dinner

After Dong Ba, we went Ratchada again and Joseph make NEW frz....

Just US, dinner @ Marriott Hotel

Our Birthday Cake

E Guys drinking at Dong Ba... Someone is missing AGAIN...

Sunday 20th September, today was a very important as I got e chance to meet with JJ, Joseph and sis together plus we are going to have our birthday dinner @ Marriott Hotel… So eager and I can’t wait to see them, around 6pm I meet up with Joseph 1st as we need to buy birthday for everyone to share during e dinner and we take train from Tampines to Orchard as JJ is meeting us 6:30pm there and Sis even later around 7plus as Casper ask her to acc his family for movie. When we all reach e hotel we sit down and chat as we are waiting for Xiao bai to come, when she came her face was fed-up so we knew that must be Caper again... And when she sit down she start complaining what happen to her and everyone was abit spoiled mood then coz we just want to be pleased and had a peaceful dinner but every time we meet up with her, they sure fall out wan and then sis won’t be eating much just look intently at e blanked and we feel uncomfortable about it.. Then everyone start to talk rubbish to her and ask her not to go home to celebrate with him, we asked her to stay and join us to Dong Ba for drink but she refused as she was so scared of Casper till she seem like undergo a lot.. Then we didn’t wanted to say much coz we feel that there’s nothing we do to help her, she had choose him as her hubby then she should know what sort of person he is.. And we are just outsider only, I had never see couple like them before and Xiao Bai is always so discontented with her life... Never a day I will heard from her saying that she is very fortunate to have him as a husband, all I heard is that how terrible he is and how he treated her and sometime I really wanted to called and ask him what he want where got husband treat wife like a dog.. Feel like playing then playing if not just doesn’t bother her and scolded her upside down; she always cries and begs for love... Listen Liao also heart pain for her but sometime also angry with her that why can’t she choose to be alone and be strong why must she hang on and get this kind of treatment by him??? I have never come by wife asking me that if her husband in jail what should she do, should I wait or not??? My point of view would be if u really love your man, u would wait and be good wife outside if u don’t even know this ans and been asking around people to help u think then for sure u don’t love this man.. Then why are u wasting your time with him and suffer all this pain???

To me R/S wasn’t just 2people story, is a story about u & him & his everything: Family, Friends, Career, finances etc…. Everything about him, u has to be there to be someone that can share happiness and saddens together and be someone important in his life, someone that he can be trusted...

Joseph Birthday Party @ Ratchada

Finally i saw JJ, e 3of us @ Lunar... Someone is missing??

Hubby Paid $50 to dancer for kissing Joseph.. Power

I met Serene @ Ratchada....

Hubby and his Tampines Sec Members.

18th September Friday, was Joseph Birthday and I ask him out to join me and hubby’s friends to Ratchada as Jay was just out from jail and I know Xiao di wasn’t feeling good that his birthday Kelly wasn’t around with him. At 1st Xiao di was so pai sae to join coz he don’t know anyone there and he had never being to Thai disco for quite some time and he just recover from wound, he went for leg ops and was at home for about 2months. But after awhile he was ok with e place and hubby’s friend are so nice that they bought him flowers to hang on him and drink to party for his birthday, hubby even bought him a $50 bender to hang on him plus paying a dancer to give him a kiss for his birthday… Xiao di seem like very enjoy himself and I feel so happy for him too and also I saw Serene there too, we had some chat and she joined my table for a few drinks then she go off… we had about 10people there and open about 6bottles, everyone was so intoxicated that night exp Chris coz he didn’t really drink much as he is not really in e mood to party.. And after Ratchada we went down to Lunar and have our part2 celebration and also we asked JJ to come and joined us. We party till 5am in e morning then go home, I feel damn shag out lo, reached home hubby still ordered Mac breakfast as he is hungry. I feel so fat that I keep eating supper after clubbing and is always MacDonald...