Qing Ming

Yest i suppose meet Alvin at serangoon central at 0830am, Cox we are going to buy praying things for my dad and 6Th aunt.. but ended up we are late cox Alvin still sleeping at home, and i cant wake him up.. i think i did called him about more then 20times, and no choice i got to ask hubby go jalan kayu check on him.. so by e time i took a cab to jalan kayu is already 10am, i was worry we cant make it in time to bright hill temple coz my ah ma say we must pray them b4 12noon.. so we faster went to ang mo kio to buy food and praying stuff, then reach bright hill temple at around 1145am.. we quickly pray and invite my dad out for meal, then go up stair invite my 6Th aunt for meal.. but 6Th didn't came down don't know why then Alvin and i have to walk up again and pray then come down again, then reject us again then we go up again, i think we walk up and down almost 3round then she accept e meal.. Alvin and i was wondering what happen man?? how come like that?? did we say anything wrong?? then we realise that actual wen we went up we didn't pray e Buddha at level 5, so we wen to pray e 3 of them and invite my aunt.. then this time OK liao, just throw 1time coin done liao.. funny rite?? can u believe it??
While waiting for e joss sticks to burn, i talk to my 6Th aunt inside my heart.. i reali miss her badly, i have alt thing to tell her.. my 6Th aunt is e only aunt that reali can understand me as she is just 12yrs old different.. when she around u can share anything with her Cox she will help u to keep your secret and advise.. and how i was i could share my feeling with her about my elder brother Jason, i reali cannot stand him anymore.. he can dint meet us or come to jalan kayu but yest is praying for qing ming, i msg him on Tue and he didnt reply me at all.. 1 msg like i cannot make it or can we meet on another day Cox Fri i cant.. i also happy, but nothing at all from his side.. this time round i already give up, this will be e last time i msg him.. after we had misunderstanding about selling my dad's flat, i have been trying to arrange a dinner with him.. but he always have his excuse to reject me, even Erina's bday we are all at home waiting for him to cut cake and he promise that he will come over after dinner with his wife.. but end up we wait for him till 10plus, then i msg him and ask are u still coming?? his reply was, my wife not feeling well lately think we go back 1st.. my heart was wa lau, not coming also never msg me let all of us wait for u..
all becoz of $$$ becoz he don't wan to return $$ to my aunties, i don't understand what wrong now.. dad's flat sell away and we each have 25k on hand and we did plan b4 if we have e $$ we must return to our aunties as they help my dad out wen he have cancer.. total $$ my dad owe them is 25k, so we both share a cost and i find it nothing wrong at all.. but u Jason tan tell me u need $$ for your son and wife and new flat, i also understand and i don't mind to take my share 25k to return them all.. but why u still give us attitude, now is Alvin and my share to return and we dint expect your $$.. u also say we dint help u out wen u alone staying at tampines but now flat sell away we want to share $$$.. something i feel like shut him up, he also never pay a single cent on this flat as last time wen dad around is ah ma and all aunties paid everything and wen dad not around is his EX gf yunying who pay it.. so who e f is Jason Tan, y he can call and shout and scold my mum or even my ah ma.. i reali hate him now, my heart is crying, I'm thinking why i have a brother like him?? from young till now, he never behave like a big bro to us, he even cannot remember our bday not even a bday wish msg from him.. but his bday we bring him out for dinner, wen he have no $$ to eat, we lend him.. so what else now he wan??
i reali hope that he can live on his own and don't disturb us anymore.. don't give us anymore prob, Cox mummy is old liao i don't wan to see her crying again.. i wan my mum to be happy and Alvin to be good..

Yest nite wen giraffe to have dinner, cox is hubby's friend Winnie's bday.. e food there not very nice, we end around 11pm then we go to YUE find ronson & chris.. Accompany Chris as he's not in e mood, so poor thing.. don't know how to help him, hoping he can be Strong..

Taken @ Giraffe, oh god after sentosa i look dark...