Happy Birthday Christine Ong 68!

Today moody day, I don know how to explain my feeling now. Just feel depressing & glum as today is Christine’s birthday and later lunch time i will go visit her. Lately I been viewing her facebook profile and saw the entire picture that she took with her bf at Cambodia and that was the time when she fall sick and found out that she had cancer, I miss her smile to me her smile always stand out like a sun flower. She always so positive in life, never give up and fight all e way. Even when she is sick & badly sick she still care for others, comfort people around her. I miss her voice, her smile, her laugh & I really can’t believe it why god can be so cruel and take her away from us. A gal, that shines like an angel why??
Her Last trip in 2008

Sometime I feel that life is full of rubbish, why god just can’t let us live happy. When you start to love or change for a better life, he just take everything away from you. Cant people live happy? This few years’ lots of people passing by from my life, my dad, my aunt, my close pri schoolmate, Christine pang fall sick and Christine ong left me. Suddenly I feel so lonely in my world and esp. when my past R/S hurt me so deeply, I use to love a man more then my life and I always hoping to marry him and live happily ever after but I failed. We didn’t work it out and people felt that is my fault to call off, who’s know what kind of life I’m living? Others won’t know coz they are not 24/7 with us, actually he is not a very bad guy just don know how to love someone and wanted people to accompany him without showing any love. Maybe it really not my time yet and maybe is really me that cannot endure it ba. After all this had happen in my life, I decided to change my thought of loving and wonderful R/S. Now I just wan someone that love me & pamper me more, don need to be handsome or rich man. Just a man that can accept my past and love who I am, I’m lucky that I had found someone who love me and pamper me although sometime he is really very attitude problem till I really can’t stand him feel like kill him but after all we are still fine. E most important thing that always make us quarrel is Erina, I really don know when I cannot take it and leave. Sometime I really hope that someone can save me, really hope that he can wake up his F**King idea...